What am I scared of? I wish I knew. Is it commitment? I think about relationships and how I want someone and now when I do have him, I am ready to quit. It's different when I'm with him but when he's gone I just want to run away. We've got so much history together, things that are shadowing over my head. I want to believe in him, I do and I want to believe in myself but I don't know if I can. This is so typical, this relationship has only started and I already want it to end. You told me I'm your everything and that you love me, you always have and it killed me a little, even though it should have made me happy. Other girls would have loved to have someone who completely adores them, why don't I? Why do I feel like I'm being suffocated? You told me that I'm the one you're living for now and I just can't handle that kind of responsibility. I just can't. It scares me, but you know what scares me even more? The fact that I don't want to hurt you, I feel like I should end it, now, before it all gets to serious but I don't want to hurt you. The guilt of knowing what I've done would destroy me. So now I feel like I'm stuck. A part of me wants to be with you and an even bigger part doesn't. I am so confused.